Monday, March 29, 2010
woots... now its like i prefer to go read other people blogs but not bother about mine. since my life is getting more and more miserable as days pass and despite wanting to type it down i fear everytime i turn back those good memories will hold me on.
i hope you will never ever find this out, but it is just that i am trying so hard to contradict myself(the previous sentence) that sometimes it get so much out of hand. even now i think it is time to let go, though things have not started. i was telling myself when i was on my way back home today to forget you completely because everything
seem so impossible,
actually it is impossible. but when your message came. it was short, sweet and terribly nice. i tried controlling but i failed and poof i think i make you annoyed. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh, dumb me.
just what should i do????
i know i can never match up no matter how hard i try. so should i try? and it's because of this that make me hate myself more, because it is something i can never change of myself despite everything i do. if not the batlle will not end before it even started :( sobas for another part of work, come on. this is life. sorry but i just can't bring myself to see you the way like how i used to see you. and maybe know your limits. because i am so bo chap already.
besides that,
MUMMUY EMILY gave me
SOMETHING AWWWWWWWWWWWWW SUPER CUTE! and she was super thoughtful to gave
us the same character. heehee(: not :(
and why is it so hard to find a place that serve halal steamboat? gosh i am seriously going bonkers. someone anyone just please save me!
isn't there a chance for me?not even a teeny weeny one?
@4:50 PM
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010
thank you. surprised. but happy things will never last.
i miss your everthing
your monkey face
your laughter/ giggles/ smile
your attitude
your protective-ness
your praise
your complains
your joke and lame-ness
your crap
your look
and most of all the wonderful time we shared together.
:(
@3:54 PM
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Wednesday, March 3, 2010
hello!
night shift started 2....or wait 3 days ago. ahhhhhhhhhhh! my night are my day and my day are my night. even i am confused with the days. *shake head*
night shift can kill, no talking no laughing and worse of all no sleeping/ napping! except for madam who gets to work downstairs and get to sneak off for a nap. hmmm, hope i can find time soon and post some pictures. lol. (:
and ohmygod madam is super dee duper nice! thank you. hope i won't get distracted during work today.
anyway cheer up. it takes time. i am sorry to say this but you should have listen to me. and maybe it was my fault for not working hard enough to help you. sorry friend. i just thought you will really find true happiness then. since you are willing to sacrifice things for it.
off to work!
what hurts the most was being so close. hope i don't fall into it this time again
@4:53 PM
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