Monday, January 4, 2010
sigh.... can't even sleep last night. was busy in a dilemma what to do and feeling sad because i can't go back to school :( i miss school lo. thought back about how the 4 years had past so fast.
1st year- went to school like a nerd. brought many storybooks to keep myself entertained. scared i have no friends. 1st friend i made was zhi ying then deborah because of her long kung-fu traditional hair. after cca was announced we clicked with other netballers in our class too. and the 1st outsider i talk to was the girl with white spots on her face, while we were discussing how to do the retarded drill. zz change our seating arrangement and i came to meet alicia.2nd year- actually i can't remember much. no actually that year was one of the most impactful time of my life. i was juggling studies with tampines mart. maybe afterall, it doesn't mean much to me now. if i bother then we would still be friends. but who cares. oh and i remembered i got top in class for science too :) i mugged like crazy because i made a pact with a wise old friend=atticus to get into the same class. good things come to an end fast. now i don't feel anything. don't know why either. maybe i am being numbed already. hahas. like THE MUMMY!3rd year- getting to know lydia and yam. form an alliance. the anti-hantu alliance. lols. damn hilarious. also made friends with constance and shermaine. upon changing places, get to meet hetty and gang. hahas. and followed by our class most exaggerating mr universe with his squad of gentlemen :) not forgetting netball was tough that year with no medals. it was also a sad year for my friend and i. but i think it was much worse for her, since it was the starting of a wild goose chase.4th year-started crapping with joyce hetty and yam. nearer to 'os' so we were all going bonkers. almost gave up english. but there was still kind souls helping me out. and chinse oral turn out to be astonishing. but true colours of certain classmates started surfacing. *shake head* i was led into the world of confusion. last month of the year then i realised i should not be emotionally attached to anyone so easily. and now i am close to my aim, being myself. JUST MYSELF. the blablablublu-self that WE once worked for. that's what i think caused this.i really don't know what to say to you.
if you really treasure this friendship in the 1st place, then why am i feeling you are not?
so much for my happy ending.
@9:06 AM
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