Thursday, December 10, 2009
yesterday started out stupidly. left house for training forgetting to bring my handphone and socks and only realise it when i was at the mrt station. then have to rush home to collect them. my mind just don't seem to be working properly these days. training was frankly speaking useless. coach seriously is not a coach. shes just there to earn big bucks while doing nothing. no courtwork being taught but just shouting. with mr san around things would have been different...
after training went off to subway with jo, val and yun er. talk about lots of stuff. some unexpected nasty things were also revealed. hahas. people are just so affected when someone out there is trying to steal the person he/she likes. i can't deny. no wonder cat fights are happening online too.
went home and hurried to work. as usual my mind was somewhere over the rainbow. this caused me to burn 7 bread. luckily my supervisor or manager was not there. if not i will be doomed. gareth wasnt here for work so it was boring. no blur blur boy to laugh at. especially no one to distract me from what i dread now- remembering the past.
it is like, i feel like crying out loud, screaming and punching something anything, but i can't. i am too tired to explain. my eyes getting swollen and panda-eyed. it seems like history just repeats itself. i build a relationship with you for how many years? going through so many things together. this is even more then before. but just by a few weeks or even just days it can be tarnished. simply speaking its like you rather trust that person than me. i don't know what technique that person use. but it definitely is awesome. so what if i am the bad person here, i don't care, because all i said are facts. now i just seem to don't know you. don't know if you are still the person that i had been with the past few years. even you saying if we get further apart, you won't let it happen. let's wait and see. hope this is direct enough. you can choose to ignore this, but i hope you understand i can't sms you 1 whole chunk of this.ihatemyselfmorethananythingnowforbeingme
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