Wednesday, December 30, 2009
i had been anticipating for this moment(to blog) since monday! but now don't know where to start. MONDAY WAS SUPER GREAT. went to johor bahru with family. ate lots of those crappy food which taste not too bad and went to jantzen. while mummy and i was waiting to be served i managed to observe so many things. there was a long hair guy who was niang niang qiang. his teeth was eeeeew due to smoking. a few dao guys who can't bring themselves to smile for fear that maybe they will wither. some guy whom seem to be my age slouching and gliding aronud with ghostly features. and of course there will be one that outshine them (:
she was super dee duper friendly. we chatted like old friends. talking about her studies and mine while she massaged and washed my head. and i told her something i had never told anyone right in the face whenever i seen the right person. she was just amazing, astonishing, awesome marvellous, cool and all the good-things you can name. hahas.
anyway, now my hair is like durian or rambutan mixed together.... but at least i like it. i guess, with mummy. i think the number of people seeing it with anger will pile up- mrs koh, hetty, some netballers and definitely many many more. sorry guys, the hairstylist thought it suited me.
oh, after hair cut i went to toilet, one auntie was about to enter when she saw me and asked if it was the ladies. what a retard. she don't know how to differentiate a drawing of a lady and a man. pathetic.
i wish i wish i wish maybe someday our paths cross again.
@10:49 PM
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Sunday, December 27, 2009
wootswoots. there is so many things i want to talk about. but i shall leave the nasty things behind. lols.
23rd was netball camp! though there was no planning for the day, but everything turn out sweet and nice. we played 'fish n net', current, rounders and usual 4-quad game and of course the
MACDONALD TEAM rule (: sadly there were no camping overnight. juniors made sandwiches, sushi, salad, popiah and pudding for us. it turned out yummy! and i had someone to serve me. heehee. manage to catch up with de min and park D, laughing and gossiping about anything. after that was dinner- canadian pizza with chicken wings. saw some old pictures, anyway, it is old so i guess it don't mean much to me anymore. ate and tease the juniors. oh and we had water netball training. it was a wonderful bonding. how i wish there was overnight camping.
it was fun teasing bean sprout.
i hope i get your attention...27th was sudden. only had 4 hours of sleep and off i went for -----. (sorry as instructed can't be mentioned) tried to be late. but there were people who were later. at least the person who i was waiting for did really come! :):):):):) went ahead with our plan and i was burnt till reddish-brown. super nice lo my colour, though it hurts. but i was willing to sacrifice. played with some 'strangers' when it turn out one of them was once part of us. anyway, we still manage to win them.
i am addicted to you. hope it don't get to deep.what's with me falling for the alphabet S ???shes no you
@5:01 PM
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Thursday, December 24, 2009
merry christmas:)hope you guys (my friends) have a great celebration. a new year is coming.
forgo the past, continue my journey, though this year was the suckiest year of my 16 years of living. anyway, i guess you are forgiven. thanks for giving me those wonderful times that i got no idea when i could ever experience them. hope you are enjoying your time with the person you love. stay happy and smile like never before. your smile never fail to cheer me up too.
off to washing toilets AGAIN!
oh, and i reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally want to own the NEW ZEALAND shop at east point. i don't mind growing fat eating them everyday!!! but i guess its not fated.what's your name?
@12:46 PM
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Monday, December 21, 2009
there are so many things i miss these days. primary school life. secondary school days when every morning hetty, yam, joyce and i will laugh at almost everything and get caught by shafie. damn hilarious. but it was all over.
last night was a sleepless night. there was so many things i was eager to blog. lets start with friendship. how do we define friendship? friendship to me is all about trust. no trust how can make friends right? so i think like what anonymous (: said, its time i start reflecting who my true friends are. a true friend now does not mean he still is 10 years later. and a true friend then does not mean he still is now. agree? since people get influenced and change easily.
friends lie don't they? be it white lie and whatever lies, they are still lies. but i don't understand what is your hidden aganda for keeping mum about everything? and... oh it's alright. just like what GD said friends come and go, simone said only zhen de hao peng you cai hui liu zai ni shen bian. (hetty i can translate for you!)
afterall you are not that great. anyway, it was a trap that you fell into which turn out to be quite a joke.
@10:31 AM
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Sunday, December 20, 2009
i would like to tell another story, but now does not seem like the right time. many thoughts have been filling my mind once again. though this time is less tiring as i have mentally prepared myself. but they still make me sick. there are so many 'why' i want to ask. but the answers i do not anticipate. anyway, people do change don't they? but it depends on how their friends handle it. at least i am trying to be more positive and brave. thats a change too right?
it was all a mistake in the 1st place.don't fret. its over this time,at least i am 1 step nearer into mind (:
@9:58 PM
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Thursday, December 17, 2009
yesterday was pure crap. i thought i could get back to my old duty, toasting bread, and i was laughing at wateverhernameis girl that she had to do cashier since cashier is the hardest for night duty. later then i realised i was actually the one. sob. thought at least she was back, maybe i got company other than those aunties. but same for today though. and uncle is feeding me like a pig! diediediediediediedie. at least that girl kept her promise and things may go smoother.
if a person don't say does not mean he don't know, which annoys. however if a person lies on being questioned, that makes him a baddy. so if you are that person what will you do?
love takes two
@11:54 PM
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Monday, December 14, 2009
woots woots. yesterday till now was full of surprises, for me. but luckily i did not suffer any heart attack, guess my heart has built an immune system for unexpected stuff approaching.
firstly was small kid. did not expect small kid to sms me. was shocked! but the shock was pleasant (: !!! small kid just seem to know when i needed someone to lash things out. or maybe it was just coincidence. at least the story between us did not just stop right there. thanks a lot dude. though i know you won't be reading this. your eyes are only glued on television. hahas.second, was a singtel surveyor! asking if i did or did not pay my bills. i was even on my way to ask my dad! anyway, because it was a private number so i was fooled! but nevermind. gosh!
third was my tagboard especially hetty! lols.fourth is you.fifth was my dream. it was awesome. hope its real.sixth is emo kia. the converation we had was quite meaningful.
so we both, you and me, eunice and emo kia must change for the better! not just complain or keeping thinking life is unfair, or having negative thinkings :) remember to stay positivesaw this on a shirt when i was out: if you love someone set them free.
i am on the verge of letting go
@12:04 PM
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
yesterday started out stupidly. left house for training forgetting to bring my handphone and socks and only realise it when i was at the mrt station. then have to rush home to collect them. my mind just don't seem to be working properly these days. training was frankly speaking useless. coach seriously is not a coach. shes just there to earn big bucks while doing nothing. no courtwork being taught but just shouting. with mr san around things would have been different...
after training went off to subway with jo, val and yun er. talk about lots of stuff. some unexpected nasty things were also revealed. hahas. people are just so affected when someone out there is trying to steal the person he/she likes. i can't deny. no wonder cat fights are happening online too.
went home and hurried to work. as usual my mind was somewhere over the rainbow. this caused me to burn 7 bread. luckily my supervisor or manager was not there. if not i will be doomed. gareth wasnt here for work so it was boring. no blur blur boy to laugh at. especially no one to distract me from what i dread now- remembering the past.
it is like, i feel like crying out loud, screaming and punching something anything, but i can't. i am too tired to explain. my eyes getting swollen and panda-eyed. it seems like history just repeats itself. i build a relationship with you for how many years? going through so many things together. this is even more then before. but just by a few weeks or even just days it can be tarnished. simply speaking its like you rather trust that person than me. i don't know what technique that person use. but it definitely is awesome. so what if i am the bad person here, i don't care, because all i said are facts. now i just seem to don't know you. don't know if you are still the person that i had been with the past few years. even you saying if we get further apart, you won't let it happen. let's wait and see. hope this is direct enough. you can choose to ignore this, but i hope you understand i can't sms you 1 whole chunk of this.ihatemyselfmorethananythingnowforbeingme
@10:29 AM
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Tuesday, December 8, 2009
a new story begins to unfold between 2 person when they make friends. upon where the direction the story is heading it all depends on the efforts put in by the 2 person. the story may go on forever in life, whereas the story may also end just the next day, the next month or year. it will be controlled by the decisions made.
if both parties have feelings for each other means its destiny. if not a friendship will still be just the fruit of your efforts or even hostility. dramas are lovely because the ending can be predicted or you can fast forward the drama. but can you fast forward your life?
so how should i handle this story?
which step taken would improve the story?
how will the story be like in the end?
PROBLEM IS THE ANSWERS DON'T DEPEND ON ME. SADLY.
you make me wanna take you out and let it rain.
@12:22 AM
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009
i am devestated while you are enjoying all these. nevermind. have fun playing. i thought i thought i thought i thought maybe your just different from the rest.
@12:27 PM
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