Enigmatico

Friday, September 25, 2009

isnt he SUPER CUTE? :)

Woots…this week was damn tiring, with all the demoralizing papers- English, Geog, SS… super dead for all of them. Next week comes with chem., bio, a-maths and phy! I am sure to die. wonder how am i going to survive through 'os' in another 4 weeks time.

anyway, main point that i kept reminding myself is that i came across something super touching last week. i was watching this programme. they were searching for 15-18 years of cute, tall, handsome guys that can be compared to the BOF. they chose this guy, TEDDY, 16 year-old. they interviewed him and the host asked if he has a girlfriend. he said no. his first love was given to this girl. but due to the girl's parent objection, they had to seperate and lost contact. but he saw her with another guy months later. the host asked if there was anything he wanted to say to the girl. GUESS WHAT? HE SAID I STILL LIKE YOU! he won the award for being the most good-looking guy among the other 4.

i guess i know how he feels... it was his first love. that girl is dumb. but i guess things do not always go the way we want it to be and we have to go on continue living like nothing has happen :( thats the tough part.

family picture! see that small boy in tux? so envy he can wear tux!

hey, i am not fooled by your lies. this is not the 1st time i see or hear you lie. you make take me for a nerd, or hopeless ugly person who studies all day just because i am in 4/9. or just that some dog or bitch in the slump take your words for real. sorry to disappoint you. YOU ARE WRONG! come on, though i take friendship seriously, but i think you are worth a friend. no, i don't hate you, because you are just a uncouth stranger whom just come and go. and i just don't understand why you deserve all the things when you are cocky dude....

how i wish...how i wish... its made possible
what do you think? will i ever ever ever have it/them?

@7:05 PM
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Friday, September 18, 2009

heyhey, finally can blog. ok, not really. anyway, terribly shit my prelims going to last for the next 2 whole weeks minus 1 day. anyway, these few days have so many things to blog about. but no idea why, once i decided to blog, everything just run away. thats not the point. today was oh so -------------!!!

need to dedicate some stuff.

to hetty: hey do not be upset, you know, some people say things that maybe hurtful but it may just slipped of their mouth. sometimes they may not mean to insult you too. so cheer up :] do not get affected. hope you had fun this afternoon.

to friend: hey, i don't know why. now seeing you i feel scared. don't know how to bring myself to face you. maybe if things are not this complicated in my heart. anyway, like what you say, yes i do not feel comfortable with three of us... hope you understand.

to the person who do not want to be name: DRAMA MAMA

I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND

@8:04 PM
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

yesterday went to night safari with classmates and 'gang' hahas. super sweet of hetty to ask if i need someone to send me home after that. THANKS! hope you have recovered from your disappontment of the $16 BUCKS. heehee! :]

there are some things troubling me these few days...guess its better to face it now. if not things will get worse. hope you will correct and forgive me. you know i am a retard...

lazy to blog. byebye:]

friends are available anytime anywhere, they come and go
but true friends are hard to come by, thats why the more i have to cherish and treasure.
hope i will not lose any, as i have lost enough.

i guess i don't have the rights to be angry.

@2:42 PM
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Friday, September 4, 2009

woots....
went to see doctor again. this time is back problem. it was a male doctor, WESLEY. super small size! he was sitting on a wheel chair and wanted to test the strength of my body. so i turned my waist, while he was holding it to see if there was any difference in my muscle tension. i turned and his wheelchair and him swayed side to side. i can't stop giggling! and the trainee had to stable him! he did a few experiments with my body and while he was away with his own stuff i approached the trainee and asked her a few stuff. she told me that in order to get into the physio area, i have to go jc for 2 years and proceed to nanyang poly and then overseas 1 year. and i have to learn all 3 sciences! worst of all, it is the only route to my ambition.

=_= there goes my wish of being able to stop studying and fulfilling the promise between me and twinnie and many many more...howhowhowhowhowhowhowhow :(
and now i am in the deepest state of DILEMMA! god, just someone or anyone, can anybody please help me?????!!!!!

geeeeeez, just what am i suppose to do. the trainee said its tough but life will be good after that. you think so? will things really be great, despite after sacrificing another few more years to get both a diploma and degree? can i even cope with the bio in jc life. she said it will be tough. goshgoshgosh. there is so many how going on my head! this is terribly depressing.

just what should i do?

i realise something, my tagboard consist of hetty and me only. thanks buddy! :]

ihopethingsweredifferent
whymustlifebethisunfair?

@5:24 PM
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

heyheyhey:]
last week was great. i guess so. can't remember much except that i went swimming on friday after eighteen chief! with 6 pairs of eyes looking except that 1 pair was busy reading her book! call yourself a friend alicia neo!!! anway, have to thank them for being there too. if not i would have drowned due to the cramp. not only that, it was quite dramatic that day too, with papers and money flying into the pool. wakakakas!
saturday was just pool.
spent most of my time setting up THE PRCS INCREDIBLES FAMILY during the weekend.
yup thats all. for last week.

yesterday had teacher's day celebration. personally, find that it suck. the atmosphere was not there. firstly, we had no half-day like any other years, secondly, we did not have teachers-students game (which i was awaiting for!), thirdly, we still did not have our half-day!!! whatthehell. anyway, hetty, do not be upset! you can go back, or meet up with your friends some other time. CHEER UP TWINNIE! :) stayed in school till about 5 for bio remedial then went to proceed to bug the teachers and help dash KOH to wrap presents. then i was on my way home when alicia needed my shoulder to lean on, so went to accompany her. luckily, the bus was not flooded. we ate longjohn and i feel super fat now. gosh!

somehow, my life has gone back to its's usual self. not much ups and downs. no quadratic, exponential, or any linear curves. just the line y= 0. nothing much entertaining these days too. just me and my usual friends:) laughing at all sorts of weird stuff. next week have science centre excursion and night safari trip wtih class. science centre seems interesting... but this time it definitely will be different then before...

(personification)
i am tired and can't be bothered to look for you anymore. its time i seriously stop thinking there is a chance, because everytime the harder i try, the more i get dejected. though without you there is indeed no meaning and goal in life. but all i can say is too bad for myself. since i am borned to be this way.

be independant eunice:) you can do it!

@4:16 PM
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