Enigmatico

Friday, July 24, 2009

okay, this week is not that horrible, though maths was pure murder! homework were give like papers were free. oh well, at least its free for the teachers since they were paid to use more papers. but still... geography was pure @#$% !!! i tried my @#$% best to explain like never before, but all i get was red marks, maybe smelling worse would help more??? ok, got no idea though.

this weeks menue was yumyum delicious:) espescially peanut butter waffles! the smell was so tempting throughout lessons! hahas.

yesterday finally i managed to fill myself with my all-time favourite MCFLURRY! :) i was savouring every moment of it with my twinnie and some buddies =) furthermore, with bio and phy spa done, it seemed like a heavy load had been removed. just left with chem.

today had fun in school! because the time seem to flew past and we did not really do anything much. just slack. went home straight and head out again to look for the shirt that caught my eye a few weeks ago. searched, found, hurriedly tried, was tempter to buy, with the promoter encouragement but the price was OHMYGOD! sosososososososososososososososososososososo sad. reason i rejected: i don't want my happiness to cuause the angriness of my parents. in school having to see people attitudes are torturing enough. so why cant just try to make peace....

A BIG SUPER THANK YOU TO- BENEDICT, HETTY, THOMAS AND DEFINITELY ZENA TOO! YOU GUYS SERIOUSLY HELPED ME A LOT TO HELP ME TO TRY TO GAIN CONFIDENCE! =) SO NICE TO HAVE YOU GUYS THERE FOR ME WHEN I AM DOWN AND NEED ENCOURAGEMENT! SUPER THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANKS! =) HOPE EVEN AFTER GRADUATION WE CAN STILL STAY IN CONTACT!

shirt- i am determine to get you! hahas!

@10:04 PM
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Monday, July 20, 2009

dokey dokey hiiiii :)

seriously there are many weird IRRITATING things happening in this world, at least in my environment, surroundings. there are many things i don't see why is there a need for! but anyway, guess its the latest trend, now more and more people are 'supporting' the not very fragrant side. oh well, who cares:) anyway, what makes you think that your friends on your side even likes or trust you? or are you that smart enough to notice that your target do not even give you a damn? hahas. your retribution i guess.... GIRLFRIEND-LESS! cricticism comes with a price. anyway, use to it too, right twinnie? :)

how nice it is, to have friends whom don't change or worst still, make friends with you just because of a motive. everybody change. no one can deny that. no one can stop it too. but you have a choice, the good or bad side:) if you really insist on thinking that you are that great then all i can say is HAPPY DREAMING!
( IF YOU THINK ITS YOU, THEN YOU ARE HAVING A GUILTY CONSCIENCE)

this world is pure freaky. anyone around you, the person who sits beside you, the one that becomes your friend, the one whom you like can have many faces in them. just everyone. a guy can once like you and end up gossiping or tell the whole world your bad points! he go around bitching about you. so ironic. HE ACTUALLY EVEN LIKE YOU BEFORE. anyway, as usual guys.... i am not trying to refer to all, but what makes you so sure that not all guys are like that after being dump?

love cannot be forced. its tough to be forced to be with someone whom you don't like.

and hey, so what if you are some popular guy with many people? i don't give a damn. as long as anyone hurt my friend...thats it as simple as that. i don't care if you are a guy with whatsoever!

words can tear a person as easily as how its used to heal a bleeding deep wound

maybe we are just friends maybe we are more maybe its just my imagination... :(
i really want to have the opportunity to shield you from everything thats hurtful and bring you happiness. if only a chance is given....
but what to do, i am borned like this.... imperfect and maybe even my birth was a mistake
if life that is that simple, then you and me will not even exist.
BECAUSE I AM STUPID!
BUT I AM DETERMINED TO PROVE MY WORTH! to the people i love and care:) hope it works out right...

@10:13 PM
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Friday, July 17, 2009

HEYHEY! its been 2 weeks since i last posted, i guess. life was incredibly sucky! with my days packed with OHMY lots of homework and tests that are so demoralising! :(:(:( so sad. did not do well in any of the test! worst of all, mrs wong keep saying that i am getting worse:( how am i just going to make it better?! so tough. so lost. so confuse. no idea what to do..... i know i should start working but............... i don't feel like it. so fed up with life!

hetty turn over a new leaf, zena busy studying hard, me- sick of life. i realise something, in me it just seem like i do not have a positive light. but just darkness surrounding me. GLAD THAT THOSE FRIENDS ARE THERE WHEN I NEED THEM:) but its just me. i am just seriously determined to step out of the old eunice! I @#$%-ING DON'T BELIEVE THAT I CAN'T BE CONFIDENT OF MYSELF IN EVERYTHING I DO! I AM GOING TO SHOW THOSE WHO LOOK DOWN ON ME! WAIT AND SEE!

hmmmm, actually got a lot to say. but kinD of forget, since i am so dumb. can't seem to remember anything. anyway, kind of upset over this certain thing- i seriously thought that since i tried my best to show you all the respect and treating you so important it seems like you are just making use or can't be bothered with me! yes you WERE once important. but now i think that you are just some bastard because it seems like you, yourself don't mark your words! when once, you made yourself seemed so nice and did everything for our sake!

( for your info- not referring to anyone from PRCS)

there's lot of questions swirling in my mind

how's your life?
though i don't dare, but should i ? or later on?
what's your 1st impression of me?
is it possible?
why like this?
are you happy?
maybe it's just my luck ah?

thats not all... but oh well there's to many to type out.

i was stupid i was foolish, but not now. because everyone has their flaws. and i bet you have more than me:)

one step back at a time

@7:41 PM
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Thursday, July 2, 2009

today biology lesson was not very conducive for hibernating, it was light and everyone was enjoying themselves:) thanks to tan zz jokes! hahas! she and her panda who rolls into a ball and attack others! and that she got something against a japanese person, guess its due to her ex-bf! lols. hilarious to the core!

went home straight after school to meet j and k, instead of playing basketball we spent the whole time talking. talking about? random stuff, thought they were useful but i realised mission failed, because i gussed it was mission impossible in the beginning, how dumb of me who had thought that i would stand any chance right from the start..... :( nvm! MAYBE ITS JUST FATE THAT I SHOULD BECOME A ... its not easy as 123, how to change it so soon?! '' i gotta be brave'' but what do i get in the end? NOTHING!

zaki thanks to you my dream of being a basketball coach has change because i guess i am more interested in a vampire's role now!!! so don't regret if i come hunting for your blood! hahas. just joking.

not again...disappointment, hurt and gone but this time it seems weird....

@11:41 PM
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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

woots, yesterday was interesting, though at least more interesting than the other school days!:)as usual though, bio was a 'hibernating session' while english we were playing 'hit the bull's eye' which somehow i prefer if we can hit the teacher's eye instead, more exciting! my chinese buddy abandon me, but i still managed to continue chinese lesson- learning drums from shifu! so hard, with all his ta-ta-ta-ta tatatata! but still managed to get it. phew! went eighteen chief after school and we came upon a changed lady who needs a changed man to help her give her life a complete successful change! hahas. and gldaly she found him, ok more like maybe he existed single for her?

today had pe= had fun:) but no dramas... *shake head* *shake head*, to someone's disappointment! hahas. don't worry there is still some time before school come to a complete end!

oh, before i hibernate, something to say: thanks for being there for me when i need you:) (referring to different but few people) be it when i need waffles/ when i need your help in just FRIENDS stuff or when i am agaitated/ or when my heart feel demoralised, scared, upset and confused on you know what. thanks a lot BUDDIES! love ya :)

if only it was as easy as 1 2 3... and successful as 1+1=2

@6:20 PM
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