Thursday, June 25, 2009
i feel down. no idea why. ok maybe i know but i just can't bear to let it go.
there is so many why and questions? i want to ask!
- why am i borned this way?
- why must it be the last time?
- why can't at least somethings go my way?
- why of all people its you?
- why can't that day last forever?
- why am i not good enough? is it just cause i am...
- why won't you change your mindset?
- why can't you see?
- why are you able to do it? when it seems like i am trying to stop it with all my might.
all the whys but no answers to them:( .......in a way, my birth was a mistake from the beginning.
people out there: somethings may not be important to you. a book, a gift and even the most random action of just saying lots of sorry, all these may mean nothing to you. however, it may means super lot to the other person. it determines that person's feelings, care and concern for you! for example: an outing with a friend could mean nothing to you, just go for fun. but that particular outing may means a lot to the other person. it could be a wonderful amazing magnificient big day for your that friend for certain reasons. thats why your that friend made sure that you are happy and have things your way. though your friend knows that it will be her/his last day, the only thing she/he wanted was just to be able to collect wonderful memories of times spent together even though it only lasted for a few hours.simply seen- you are important to that particular person.i think its time that person give up too... :(
am i ever able to achieve what i want?
@5:50 PM
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