Friday, May 29, 2009
today is last day of term 2 but beginning of a torturous period for my os. monday is my chinese paper and i guess i may have to retake because i have not really prepare for it, unlike the many people in my class, though some keep insisting that they did not but practically i see them doing it everyday. so bullshit.
got back results today. guess they will confiscate my hp again since i did not achieve up to expectations again...but at least i improved! anyway, they are parents and parents= don't understand. i went for some talks held by polys and the people talking make such good sleeping pills. now i am wondering how am i going to survive lectures when i start poly life.
before that, i went to ws for lunch. me and zena talk about some past and about some future on how am i going to gain my confidence and be someone who is caring, take initiative and stuff. its not something that i don't want to. but its something i am considering whether i should bother having it or not! its like so what even if i have it, does it even help? end up i will still be in this pathetic state. why i don't want to try? becauce if i try, i am giving myself thoughts that i may succeed when in reality its the opposite... maybe not too. i guess i will need to give myself sometime to convince myself that maybe things will not turn out so bad? in a way i also miss the happiness that i once had too. i want it back, not with the same IT though. because ITS already contaminated... but am i fated to have that place beside me taken or vacant?after the talk went to shi fu house to learn and practice. don't worry shi fu, i will train hard so as to be able to be like that guy that u had shown me, but for the body size- i definitely am not going to be like that! NO WAY! HAHAS. anyway, apologies to hetty and thomas! you guys have to accompany till so late. sooooooooooooooory! and a ENORMOUS
THANK YOU yea?:):):)
THANK YOU SHI FU!:) WAHAHAHASare you the one for me?
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