Friday, May 29, 2009
today is last day of term 2 but beginning of a torturous period for my os. monday is my chinese paper and i guess i may have to retake because i have not really prepare for it, unlike the many people in my class, though some keep insisting that they did not but practically i see them doing it everyday. so bullshit.
got back results today. guess they will confiscate my hp again since i did not achieve up to expectations again...but at least i improved! anyway, they are parents and parents= don't understand. i went for some talks held by polys and the people talking make such good sleeping pills. now i am wondering how am i going to survive lectures when i start poly life.
before that, i went to ws for lunch. me and zena talk about some past and about some future on how am i going to gain my confidence and be someone who is caring, take initiative and stuff. its not something that i don't want to. but its something i am considering whether i should bother having it or not! its like so what even if i have it, does it even help? end up i will still be in this pathetic state. why i don't want to try? becauce if i try, i am giving myself thoughts that i may succeed when in reality its the opposite... maybe not too. i guess i will need to give myself sometime to convince myself that maybe things will not turn out so bad? in a way i also miss the happiness that i once had too. i want it back, not with the same IT though. because ITS already contaminated... but am i fated to have that place beside me taken or vacant?after the talk went to shi fu house to learn and practice. don't worry shi fu, i will train hard so as to be able to be like that guy that u had shown me, but for the body size- i definitely am not going to be like that! NO WAY! HAHAS. anyway, apologies to hetty and thomas! you guys have to accompany till so late. sooooooooooooooory! and a ENORMOUS
THANK YOU yea?:):):)
THANK YOU SHI FU!:) WAHAHAHASare you the one for me?
@9:16 PM
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Tuesday, May 26, 2009
guess what guess what guess what!:) i managed to complete NAFA with 'not that bad results' hahas! and amazingly, our school's basketball court is cleared up already and i really would like to play basketball someday soon. sports are the only thing i will NEVER get tired of. i regretted this ever since i realised that 'regrets' existed. i truly regretted that i have not study hard and maybe if i did, i would end up in anglican or ngee ann with my happy life having basketball everyday of my life... but if i have that i will have to sacrifice and excahnge it with my current life and friends whom i really do not wish to lose! in another words i can't have everything i want. so sad sobs:(
will you wait for me?
@8:35 PM
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Sunday, May 24, 2009
ouch! the show is so sad and draggy! gosh. so irritating. i guess now i CAN'T rest for this weekend for the show is just sooooooooo tempting. enjoy watching hetty:) hope we can complete it by the next weekend! woots.
HUAI TING!!! :)A TOUGH BATTLE...
@7:13 PM
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Friday, May 22, 2009
Woooohoo:)! Today is Friday and that means i will have the weekends to rest. i was restless these days. no idea why. i feel very fat now. have been eating everyday but did not even exercise to lose. furthermore, today had haagen daz, 'desert' hahas and sunday still have to celebrate grandma's birthday! lots of delicious but fattening food awaiting for me! AHHHHHHH!
terribly gosh...
school today was hilarious, with mrs wong telling us about her students and stuff and mrs ang teasing thomas to install air-con for the class! hahas. then went tampines to walk around and window-shop. i guess hetty must have already decide what i have to wear for prom night
:O die, i just can't imagine what is awaiting for me.
anyway, I just completed my dinner and my parents were telling me about my childhood accidents which are both hilarious but at the same time frightening too. Dad told me that when I was small I am clumsy and super blur. They said I run into walls and pillars, banging my head carelessly. They say I ran into Harvey Norman, attracted by the television. Unknowingly, I ran towards the shop and bang into the glass window without realizing that actually such a thing like glass existed. Terribly dumb! No wonder my brain’s IQ that low:( I even roll off the bed too, no wonder I can’t make it for gymnastic! K, that’s lame. hopeless ain't i?
if things were that easy
@8:16 PM
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Thursday, May 21, 2009
boring... spending all my time in lessons daydreaming and falling asleep. hahas. gosh! at the rate i am going, guess i will fail my 'o's. anyway today was a
SUPER SIAN day for the gossip club. hetty and me were struggling to keep awake as all the teachers were like our sleeping pills. hahas. i can't imagine ms tan zz being in the form of a sleeping pill! then she will roll around, wobbling here and there. k, its lame. what a boring day though. there is already so much homework waiting for me:( guess i am going to have a terrible weekend too. so dead!
hmmm, yea, its true. can't deny that people do change when time past. though i do know. but the shocking thing is the rate at which they change and the drastic outcome which they had become. its like from a banana to a mosquito. no link between them right? but still the outcome is that. funny goondu weird spastic people.
if i were a boy... how i wish
@7:26 PM
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009
for the 2 recent days in school, we spend our time taking back our results and going through the papers. many of them did well. but for me this is such a demoralising mid-year! don't seem to have any A's:( sobs. now i am seriously wondering if there is even hope for me to make it to poly. die. all my parents hopes are on me... worst of all, mother tongue 'o' levls is like in another 1 week time.
these few days i was wondering if such thing as fate and miracles do exist and happen in our lives or not. if i do see this person somewhere at some time does it necessarily mean that it was fate that brought us together thus we will meet. is it also that all our paths in life has been drawn crossing each other, so no matter if i know or don't know you as a friend we will still meet and there is a purpose and significance that you are there? and if things between us can proceed on from there does it mean that fate brought us together? or is it just coincidence? coincidence that brought me and my fellow friends and classmates together? coincidence that i managed to get into 4/9? maybe it could be a miracle too... miracle which i have never got a chance to experience- wonderful moments which gave a twist to my life. seems like i am not fated to have miracles. lols. tough luck to me then.
now i am addicted to boys over flowers. cant deny that the drama is great with the plot, marvellous school( especially the school food buffet) and the funny squeaking of the girl's voice. however, in another way, it seemed so unrealistic. is it really that possible to win a person's heart no matter how good you look( the severely permed hair), the money? if yes then i pity those who are average-looking and poor. life is just so unfair, no matter how hard you work there is always something that you can't achieve because
you are you! and you are not someone else:( maybe that is why there are many backstabbers, for they could no longer tolerate what their life is going through which other's do not have to get through...saaaaaaaaaaaaaad
do you even exist?
@5:56 PM
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Monday, May 18, 2009
ok, just rushed back from after maths lesson and physio. somehow i am discharged. which is neutral to me. no comments. woots. anyway, all they do is just stare and look at my filthy stinky leg, then oh they start mumbling some blablablublu stuff. so random. later going to exercise like nuts!:) miss playing the many sports that i had fancied.
hmmmm, yesterday was not as smooth as i thought it would be for there was miscommunication and some tough persuading for some people- be it leaving the house or just taking a pathetic bus. anyway, but still luckily its not totally destroyed in a way. went with the 2 girls to buy whatever we were supposed to buy. then hurried off to meet the guys. spend all the time talking about 'best friends' and 'finding love'! hahas. teased and discussed about finding alicia's never-found love. hahas. anyway, alicia with your loud voice and assts whose attention can't you attract?!:) a million thanks to the guys for being co-operative.
EXCEPT FOR 1!
*Reminder, Ernie no worries, you will be able to find love ^^!
it may not be your fault in your opinion, for this time. but i seriously think that you should hold a sense of responsibility. furthermore, with all that you had mentioned once that i was ur bf. i maybe overreacting. but tolerance has its limits. its not the money but the trust. but that too implies that its time i shall consider and ponder about certain stuff. its not the 1st time happening it anyway.my life does not just consist of you-seriously
@12:15 PM
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Friday, May 15, 2009
some pics from aqilahs bday
HOOOOOOORAY! finally:) freaking, irritating exams are over! hahas. finally. i was so packed and busy mugging everyday, non-stop. even my brain and body is now an automatic clock, if i do not study, i feel weird instead. weird ain't i? heehees. so awaiting for this weekend!:) hope everythings going to flow smoothly. i guess i have to seriously make good use of this weekend to rest! GREATLY, mon has MATHS lessons! woohoooos!
anyway, today was amazingly great. chem spa passed smoothly, though i was frantically scared, hands that can't stop shaking. then laze around to talk with some people...hahas. details shall not be revealed! lols. then went downtown east to laze. after god knows how many hours, hetty and ys have to go. so was wondering around pasir ris aimlessly with thomas. then accompanied him to find his teakwondo teacher! surprisingly, the teacher looks more like an unwanted, dumped teddy-bear. ok, thats evil! then took taxi home so as not to be late. and thank you thomas:) for making me walk a further route to my home -_- and telling me more about you. hahas. anyway, its fine with me:)
by the way, this post is dedicated to you-jun hao. seriously, all my previous posts has nothing to do with you. i know you read my blog. so i hereby want to make somethings clear to you. whats in the past, just let it be can? i really have nothing against you, if you are thinking it that way. maybe because we seldom talk, thats why there maybe some understanding. i am sorry if i cause any anger in you in anyway. still friends? i hope so... its our last year already so ya.
to everyone out there, treasure those around you when you can. only when you lose somethings then you will eventually realise those are acutally the marvellous things in life.
life is just like this- painful
@10:23 PM
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Friday, May 8, 2009
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i screwed up my geog paper despite studying it like crazy last night! instead i did not really bother about my lit... shockingly, teacher still could claim that its easy to bet on nat veg and the question for economic development would be easy to understand! but
HOLY LOBSTER, all the questions were alien and confusing to me. lesson learnt: never trust BULLshit teachers! oooops. heehees.
next week is equally packed with exams:( so dead and tired. sobs.
hmmmm, something interesting had happened and it made me realise that certain friends are cork eye as they rather choose to be with some1 they like, and getting lots of hurt once and maybe again in the near future and choose to neglect friends!? i just don't get it! what do you see in an egoistic guy like him who goes around bossing people and thinks he owns the world with his looks(when he don't have) and his bloody attitude who treats people like shit when instead he is 1 too. however i believe what we have done of ignoring and losing trust in you is what you deserve. and i regretted for showing you sympathy before. we were friends, now i don't think you are part of us...i guess though we don't really say. actions speaks louder than words.
anyway, to me all guys can be jerks in a way or another. it just depends on how you see it at times. but definitely some are nice when you
WERE or some
ARE your friends.
a few miracles happen this week...lols:)
@2:12 PM
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Sunday, May 3, 2009
Woots…I realise that my home sucks terribly lot. Holy crap. Especially on thurs. My that mum suddenly went crazy and started slamming and whacking my head. She even bit me! Though I did not fight back, I was cursing deep down in my heart. She seemed possessed. Anyway, not the 1st time, she even kicked my head before. Since young she got hell lot of things against me. No idea why too. She just can’t stop irritating me and my dad in her super-high pitch voice. Guess she want to join Singapore Got Talent.
Anyway, many people say the world is ending. But to me, the world has already end after that incident. Reason why I am still surviving is because I still have some great friends that are worth living for. Though some indeed has changed drastically, but there are a few that never fail to make my day whenever I needed and need them. Their moods affected the way I am now. Many once pleasant things, but now they are just hurtful stuff came to my mind today. But in a way, I managed to ignore and move on, great right? And the people I have to thank lots are definitely my
GREAT FRIENDS! If I am given a choice to die, the last people I want to hang out with are my friends. If I am given the chance to live again, I will still want to be myself- the Eunice that has all the great friends, but also the Eunice who will never take that wrong particular step again. Since the world is ending soon, so why not just cherish the friends that we have, instead of giving up friendship for some
STUPID stuff! Maybe some people just don’t have the right mentality and feelings to understand… but its ok. As long as I am not 1 of the group:) hahas. I guess only Hetty and me gets it! Heehee!
if only you can see the tears in the world you left behind......
@10:08 PM
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some pics from aqilahs bday
