Friday, February 27, 2009
today is great...more like its normal. my life can't get anymore exciting and fun ever since that day. in school, as ususal had physics test followed by 3 maths period with ms funny wong! she is forever super hillarious. followed by recess, thomas bought food for me-egg tarts and sandwiches. that was very nice of him:) hahas. after eating, went around walking aimlessly to avoid teachers catching for staying in class. then skip ss to go for competiton against plmgs! and we won, but did badly for the 3rd quarter. surprisingly my dad still came to watch in the end. so supportive of him!
anyway, main point of today's post is that i want to thank some people in my current life in alphabetical order. they are always there for me and cheering me up.
- alicia
- anything
- elisya
- hetty
- jach
- khai
- netballers
- thomas
- valerie
- wadeva(as requested!)
- zena
these are the some. hahas. everyone has their different play in my life:) espescially when i am super super down and disappointed. REALLY A MILLION THANKS TO YOU GUYS! though i am still trying my best to forget what had happened. its so tough. and is something i can't bear to. lousy, am i? in the 1st place guess it was a mistake...but i can't change anything. so just have to continue life(like as if i have a choice to die)! wonder how long more can i survive. every sleep is a nightmare. fearing i would dream of things that are too wonderful to be true. but another side of me just does not want to let go. what am i suppose to do?
not even a chance?
@8:51 PM
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Thursday, February 26, 2009
ok, this is super weird and troublesome. never did i expect myself to create a blog. anyway, life is full of unexpected things. since day 1 in this school i also never expect much, till now i realised so many things just flew past me. my nerdy boring sec 1, my wonderful time in sec 2(going tampines mart), my pack sec 3 amazing life(staircase) and finally the worst experience in my life-sec 4(left with nothing but a scar). everyday thinking about the past and choices i made before, i feel glad with those memories but torturous at the same time as it deepens the wounds that all is left. there is so much to say but whats the point now? nothing will ever change. don even care, don even appreciate and worst of all its done so easily but its not easy to me at all. its already that deep, how izzit not possible to drown? its not you thats why...but still it will always be there.
it hurts. more than anything.
@10:16 PM
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